Coffee Ice Cream

Words nourish meice_cream_sundae

Fill me up to saturation

Desert storm deluges

Soak my soul

As two scoops of Hagen Dazs coffee ice cream

With peanut chips and hot fudge.

Do faucets like wells ever dry up completely?

Will these fingers ever stop talking?

Or run out of things to say

To discuss or argue or feel about?

Will Hagen Dazs ever run out of coffee ice cream?

Now that they know how much I love

A spoonful on my tongue?

 

Courage Disguised As My Brother

We have a lot of history

      You and Ijosh mark

Met when I was eight

And you were brand new. 

Been locked in combat ever since

Taking sides

Creating insignificant battles

About family matters and such. 

You are my mirror and I am yours.

I see my soul reflected in your eyes

As you reveal me back to me. 

And I remember us in black and white

And various shades of gray

From childhood photos

We share in picture albums

Removed gently from the drawer of my heart

When I need to see how the puzzle pieces fit.

Sisters live on pedestals

Protect you from reality

Feed you breakfast

Let you crash till noon

When you trespass through their lives

            Without apology.

Idols are not vulnerable, and

            Certainly not human, like you. 

I arrived first to teach you

But you taught me…

            About courage

            About strength

            About will.

While searching

Through my scrapbook of memories

Where I go to find minute pieces of a puzzle

So I can make them fit

I see you standing at my back door

Freezing and damp at 4 am

In black leather, in the dark dawn 

Holding an old tattered guitar

After you’d hitchhiked all night

To sing Puff the Magic Dragon

To your new baby nephew…

                 …My newborn son.

Fear

many kindsbars on windows

of bars on windows

types of locks on gates

holding us in

with no skin

to protect the soul

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

All rights reserved.  ©2009 by Sara Fryd

Longing

   Though I’ve worn my heartlonging

Upon my sleeve (and around my knees)

More times than I care to remember

Or talk about in mixed company.

There is that special place I keep for you

Like the bag that’s packed

With brandy colored lipstick, ginger cologne

A little black dress, and pink lingerie

That ignites fire in those knowing eyes.

             In case…

                       Just in case…

The wind ever whispers your name

On a crisp October evening

When I answer a knock at the door

And a stranger with your face

Requests to come in.

Me, New & Improved

                                     Feelings…

                                                          like butterflies

                                                in spring

                                       are coming

                                             in all directions at once.

              An open bookbutterflies

      every nuance

          written on my face

                in my eyes.

Like seventh grade

           when every look

                 every boy

  crushed your ego, or

            broke your heart.

Has it been…                  

          so long

       since anyone

             touched me

that all my feelings…

                   are coming

           like butterflies

                              in spring

                                                in all directions

                                                          at once.

 

All rights reserved.  ©2009 by Sara Fryd

Slymans

Small, crowded delicatessensslymans

Commonly known as delis

With uncommon smells of heaven

Emanating from the front door.

Sounds of serious determination

As slicers carve corned beef

Pastrami…

Low fat turkey breast

With mayo or mustard

On rye (with seeds or without)

Or pumpernickel as the mood strikes.

Animated discussions

Between Marlboro, Camel men

Sitting at the counter

In baseball caps turned around.

Sour pickles…

Sauerkraut with Russian Dressing.

Hot containers filled with hotter oil

Sizzle raw potatoes

Cut into crinkled sticks

To be dipped later

In ketchup or blue cheese

With stains still evident

hours later on blouse or tie.

What a place that reverberates

The sounds and smells of Cleveland

At noon on Thursday in February

A respite from nearby high rises

Filled with people staring at computer screens

Eating peanut putter and jelly sandwiches

On white bread

Out of anonymous plastic containers

Removed from brown paper bags

With tasteless baked chips.

Where else could you find such richness

Of spirit and soul and still hear

‘Honey’ ‘Darlin’ ‘Beautiful’ ‘Babe’

In one small step behind a single door

At Thirty-first Street and St. Clair.

Smoky Jazz

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The wailing sounds of sadness

Of saxophones and whispering guitars

Massage my ears

The right side of my neck

A hand lingers on the inside of my thigh.

 

The small of my back

Longingly remembers the open lips

That traced my form

Still feels the caress

Of fingers placed lovingly

Like a bookmark…

In that space

That has been empty

Of you…

 

Like my soul

That knows the warmth of your touch

But has forgotten the feeling of you

           this long.

All rights reserved.  ©2009 by Sara Fryd 

Volcanoes Erupting

 

Feelings…volcanoes erupting                                     

 …unacknowledged since childhood

            are erupting

                           like open wounds

 not properly cleansed with antiseptic.

     Mourning my losses

               resolving my fears

 become the purpose of each day.

 

Emotional scars

               ignored too long,

                      forgotten,

                                       locked away

                                                deep in ones’ subconscious,

                                       not dealt with,

                                                stuffed so deep

                                       one hardly remembers…

 

                                       …becomes the molten lava,

                                       expanding from inside out,

                                                ultimately,

                                                          irrevocably,

                                                                   pushing away

                                       all those relationships

                                                that finally come to us

                                       with open arms.

 

All rights reserved.  ©2009 by Sara Fryd

Where Does the Train Go, When It Leaves Munich?

Watching © by Joshua Liberman – The Tao of Photography

Watching © by Joshua Liberman – The Tao of Photography

A tiny frightened child stands

At the bottom of a hill 

          Watching…

As the train roars by

Through the tall pine trees

Wondering where it goes.

Does it take you far away?

To someplace warm, peaceful

A place where there is space to sleep

Sunshine to warm your face?

Munich is icy cold, so full of ghosts

Corpses buried by the hands of others.

As she peeks through chocolate eyes

          She wonders…

What kind of world stands silently by

          Knowingly seeing

          Doing nothing…

Allowing the murder of its children

While it looks the other way?

By two she’s learned

Survival means silence

Old socks stuffed in mouths

Too hurt to cry out loud.

She places her needs

          Her dreams

          Her feelings aside

To be remembered

And dealt with another day.

          Invisible…

She watches…

Stuffing all her screams

All the terror down too deep.

Afraid if she begins to cry

She will be unable to stop.

          As a whisper…

She stands

Watching the train moving

Through the tall pine trees.

Afraid…

This time it will come and take…

            …her Papa away.

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